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Tuesday, July 22, 2008

[[the dark knight]]

i watched it last week... it's really really damn fucking awesome.. it evoked so much feelings and thoughts in me... i don't normally blog about shows that i watched. this may be one of the very few non-military shows that i blog about.

i can't remember clearly, but at one point in the show, i felt like crying.. i just can't remember which part... and for the record, i must say the the Joker was really played very well. Extremely well. In fact, i literally felt fear in me in some of the scenes where the Joker appeared.. but that's not what caught me in the show..

when i watched the show, i felt an overwhelming surge of feelings surge through me.. the show really portrayed what i had strongly believed, that everyone exists for a purpose. And that there is a unseen balance in this world.

the relationship between Batman and the Joker is akin to the relationship between my father and i. We are both direct opposites of each other. I grew up to be almost everything that he is not. My character got molded by the experiences that I had with my father from young. I feel that I am here to make up for all his mistakes, I feel that I am here to look after my family in some aspects that my Father is not capable of. He is, without a shadow of a doubt, a very good father. But because of his bad temper, his past experiences. and alot of other things that had happened before I was born, he is a person with very low EQ. Yet, I grew up to be a person who is rather sensitive to people's emotions. I kept trying to pull everyone in the family together, but it is a very tough fight when i am doing it alone. When i got into my course, I even had the thought that it is a blessing that being in the same course as my brother, we would grow closer together. But now it seems, it's easier said than done.

A lot of things, we wanted it to happen in a certain way, but normally it doesn't. But that doesn't mean that we should stop trying. I, for one, never stop trying. Because I care enough for all these things that I would do anything to set things right. Sometimes it becomes unbearable. People ask me to let got, but i can't. If i let go, who is going to pick up the reins.

Like in the movie, Bruce Wayne wanted to give up his double life. He saw his opportunity in Harvey Dan, who could be the white knight of Gotham. However, his dream was soon shattered. Similarly, I am prepared to take the fall if I could set things right in my life. But as to when i can right all the wrongs in my life, if i could even achieve that, no one knows, not even me.

in the movie, Batman asked to be the bad guy. So that a balance could be struck in Gotham. Sometimes in life, someone has to be the bad guy too. I have heard this too many times, When someone comes down hard on you, it's because he cares. When he stops ranting on you, then you know that he no longer bothers. I scold my brother all thetime. I know he does not like it. Neither do i. But i hope he can learn as much as he can, and make all the mistakes that he will make at home. Because once he gets out to the working world, we can't protect him any more. The expense of this is that he and I are not as close any more. However, in future, he may grow up to be a more careful person. Who knows? if that happens, I'm glad.

in the movie, Alfred withheld the letter that Rachel wanted to give Bruce. He allowed Bruce to keep the one regret in him. The belief that Rachel had wanted to be with him, and he didn't treasure it. This regret kept him going. It kept him alive and it gave him his purpose.

I wonder how many times in life, does one tell a white lie to protect another. I feel that no one can live without a purpose, without a meaning. He would just be an empty shell then. Sometimes the things you say or do, can really make a big difference in someone's life. Which is why, I always try my utmost best in showing my appreciation to the ones i care, either by doing something, or telling them my sincerest feelings.

I feel sad sometimes, when i show my appreciation, and the other party does not seem to feel it. But that does not stop me from trying to show. For those whom i have shown my appreciation, accept it, for i am most genuine.

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I'm sorry for my harsh words. After I watched Dark Knight. I thought about things. It reminded me of what I used to always say: there's always 2 sides to every coin. It was just not meant to be for us to be. But along with unhappiness, also came good memories. I thought of the things you did for me. the surprise farewell, your card of encouragement, etc. These are things meant to be treasured too. Thanks for these memories

and to the little ger who calls me Papa:
you tell me things that I didn't know about myself. I am happy that I gave you such feelings and emotions. Somehow, you made me feel appreciated. I'm pleasantly surprised, because all this time while I am trying to make people around me feel appreciated, someone actually let me feel appreciated.

There's so much more to be done. In my lifetime, I wanna tell and remind everyone that I care for, how much I care. Never again, would I want the same thing with ah gong to happen. when i let you feel that you are special to me, where appropriate, give me a friendly jab to my shoulder, or give me a hug. That would be enough for this dark knight to retreat into the knight :)

i was here @
10:53 PM.

Monday, July 21, 2008

[[who wanna go K1 Grand Final?]]

Main Site : here
Schedule : here
(Note: early bird joy ride at 9am)

for those interested in playing the Go-Kart
(WEAR SHOES!)

Public Fun Karting Time-Trials

For who?:	For you, who are looking for a challenge and want to be crowned the first Champion on the F1 track!
How it works:	Karters will be timed and have their timings recorded. A Timing Board will show the names of karters with the top 10 best timings. The karter with the fastest time recorded over the 2 days will be crowned Champion!
Champion:	Champion Trophy + $500 in cash AND an opportunity to take part in the Formula BMW Scholarship Trials next year!
2nd and 3rd prizes:	Gift Vouchers from Participating Sponsors
Fee:	$12
Registration:	On