geo [ Tots of the Gundam Prince ] <body><script type="text/javascript"> function setAttributeOnload(object, attribute, val) { if(window.addEventListener) { window.addEventListener('load', function(){ object[attribute] = val; }, false); } else { window.attachEvent('onload', function(){ object[attribute] = val; }); } } </script> <div id="navbar-iframe-container"></div> <script type="text/javascript" src="https://apis.google.com/js/platform.js"></script> <script type="text/javascript"> gapi.load("gapi.iframes:gapi.iframes.style.bubble", function() { if (gapi.iframes && gapi.iframes.getContext) { gapi.iframes.getContext().openChild({ url: 'https://www.blogger.com/navbar/9406986?origin\x3dhttp://freedometeor.blogspot.com', where: document.getElementById("navbar-iframe-container"), id: "navbar-iframe" }); } }); </script><!-- --><div id="b-navbar"><a href="http://www.blogger.com/" id="b-logo" title="Go to Blogger.com"><img src="http://www.blogger.com/img/navbar/3/logobar.gif" alt="Blogger" width="80" height="24" /></a><form id="b-search" action="http://www.google.com/search"><div id="b-more"><a href="http://www.blogger.com/" id="b-getorpost"><img src="http://www.blogger.com/img/navbar/3/btn_getblog.gif" alt="Get your own blog" width="112" height="15" /></a><a href="http://www.blogger.com/redirect/next_blog.pyra?navBar=true" id="b-next"><img src="http://www.blogger.com/img/navbar/3/btn_nextblog.gif" alt="Next blog" width="72" height="15" /></a></div><div id="b-this"><input type="text" id="b-query" name="q" /><input type="hidden" name="ie" value="UTF-8" /><input type="hidden" name="sitesearch" value="freedometeor.blogspot.com" /><input type="image" src="http://www.blogger.com/img/navbar/3/btn_search.gif" alt="Search" value="Search" id="b-searchbtn" title="Search this blog with Google" /><a href="javascript:BlogThis();" id="b-blogthis">BlogThis!</a></div></form></div><script type="text/javascript"><!-- function BlogThis() {Q='';x=document;y=window;if(x.selection) {Q=x.selection.createRange().text;} else if (y.getSelection) { Q=y.getSelection();} else if (x.getSelection) { Q=x.getSelection();}popw = y.open('http://www.blogger.com/blog_this.pyra?t=' + escape(Q) + '&u=' + escape(location.href) + '&n=' + escape(document.title),'bloggerForm','scrollbars=no,width=475,height=300,top=175,left=75,status=yes,resizable=yes');void(0);} --></script><div id="space-for-ie"></div>
Saturday, December 30, 2006
[[death... i saw it..]]


its the third death i knew of this 2 weeks.. the first is my wai gong, then JJ's ah gong... now my Grandaunt.. i made the right decision to visit her lsat week and last evening...

she passed away in the house.. i'm not close with her... but she willl call me ah boy n stuff when she sees my when the family gets together once in a blue moon.. she knows who i am.. i just felt that it was right to visit her while i still can... i think i made the right choice... the people in the house cried as the doctor annouced her death.. i didn't.. at one point i nearly did... my vision blurrred.. but not because of my grandaunt.. i imagined if it were my Mama... my heart ached... there's still so much i have not done... this night made me want to be home more often... the hols are coming to an end... my four day week is busted because of a UE on fri... i thought i could go home earlier... in any case, i busted last sem.. now i'm in deep shit... how the hell do i locate my mentor?? alot of probs to settle.. my strenght is also my bane...

i stayed in hall again tonite... tmr got rugby... its not that i want my hall to lose.. but i hope we dont win... otherwise it would mean more time away from my family... i was talking to amanda that day... unlike her, i knew very little about my own family.... i'm trying to get close to them.. but i dunno how...

this is one of those times ii feel lost and alone again...

i cant solve my own probs... and i dont know what to do about things i feel about home... some people tell me that i don't seem the sort, but they feel that i'm filial from the things i say and do... my feelings are true.. they are not a show... i hope i am not misunderstood..

Mama's Bday is a month away.. i wonder how long it's been that i last gave her a Bday present.. i just dont know how to... why am i like that.. this time, i have no clue either.. but i feel like giving her the letter that i had intended so long ago... PS: if you know how to help me, help me, pls..

I can feel it man... when Ma says things about me.. she is like so proud of me, although sometimes she gets things wrong.... like when people ask why i am so black... she would always happily say that its because i swim alot when its because of tennis or waterpolo.... but i can feel it.. she feels happy talking about her son...

i still see no point in studying... its going to get me again..

i seriously need help... but in the first place.. i dont know what the fuck is my prob...


initially i had some happier things to blog about... well... i dont know now...

anyway,

Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting

Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting

the belated xmas gift inside seemed too cheapo so i decided to make my own carrier... I'm glad you liked it... thankfully i chose the right gift!


by the way... i'm this little kid's uncle..

Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting

Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting
i'm so black la

PS: you seemed troubled.. what happened? can i help you??

i was here @
2:15 AM.

Comments: Post a Comment
read
links
misc
PSP



[[ link me! ]]

My Blog
Image hosted by Photobucket.com
Code:




This is Multiply.
Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting
Code:



Mambo FOo!
Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting
Code:




[[ The Conversations ]]
Image hosted by Photobucket.com



Hit Counter
Hit Counter



[[ Back Log ]]

-December 2004
-January 2005
-February 2005
-March 2005
-April 2005
-May 2005
-June 2005
-July 2005
-August 2005
-September 2005
-October 2005
-November 2005
-December 2005
-January 2006
-February 2006
-March 2006
-April 2006
-May 2006
-June 2006
-July 2006
-August 2006
-September 2006
-October 2006
-November 2006
-December 2006
-January 2007
-February 2007
-March 2007
-March 2008
-April 2008
-May 2008
-June 2008
-July 2008
-August 2008
-September 2008
-October 2008
-November 2008
-December 2008
-February 2009
-April 2009
-August 2009
-October 2009