Friday, December 08, 2006
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so long nv blog already huh... so many things happened... so many random thoughts.... have been coming back almost everyday for sports... had some movie/supper last night with some of the Mambo people... that yulin super enthusiastic about it sia.... at first i thought a few people only, in the end, i think she emailed all of NTU minus the Profs and the canteen aunties.. she even sms everyone the night before... RESPECT.. cooked ramly burger, prata etc... earlier in the evening, Amanda came my room to use the internet.. always forget things one... forgot to bring keys, then kena stuck in canteen to do work.. so i just tot ask her come up since we are meeting the guys later for dinner then grocery shopping.. wow.. she koped alot of movies from my HDD man... all accumilated thankx to NetScan.. wonderful program... but to be use with extreme caution.... PS: where ur post went to? i hven commented and it disappeared! haha
http://mambo06.multiply.com/photos/album/14supposed to be the swim manager, but the polo manager went back to Indonesia... so become lim pei do.... and i ended up playing aso.... playing is fun.. but haiyo... not enough people in the team... jialat man... then the match dates and times were not given to me aso.. when asked for it.. i was greeted with silence as well... yeah so cool...
playing rugby too.. crazy man.. playing all the sports i nv played before... need a pair of cheap stud shoes.. otherwise i will slidiing all over the field....
si bei sian... these days, have been seeing fuckers... dunno why.. just too arrogent.. hmm.. never not like them can already....
brought ah gong to hospital on Wed.. actually i was there with gu gu... although he smiles at me and stuff... i wonder does he really recognise me.... back then he forgotten who i was... even though i was the one most polite to him... now it's the hol.. yet he is in hospital, so he cant see me that often also.... maybe i'm a coward also... i didnt really go see him much... i want to go visit him, because i dont want him to forget that i am his grandson... but i dont know what i can do to stop his memory loss.. whenever i encounter things that i have no solutions for, i would just stop in my tracks.... i'm not running away from these problems, but neither am i tackling them... is this cowardice? I dont know...
similarly... i know that she's seems to be very hurt.. her blog is closed.... i wont know anything now.... till today, i have yet to call to ask how is she... i want very much to... but i dare not.. this is the first time i am like this... because i'm afraid that i have no solutions to her problems... in the past, i could do anything for her... not anymore.. i fear failure... she was the only one that i did everything right...
tsk... haizz... dunno la.. guess these 2 instances are proof enough that i am not as brave as i though i am...
there's this airplane show on Ch U at 10pm.... there's this high-flyer pilot who liked a stewdess.. i dont reali know the story.. they loved each other... but the girl married another pilot due to some misunderstanding... the former still liked her but he didn't bastard the other pilot who was also his gd friend... but there was one incident when the stewardess apparantly lost some story book she liked.. the pilot bought another one for her.. he very much wanted to give it to her...until he realised that her husband made a bed like the one in the story book for her.. he said, instead of reading it in a book, might as well let her be like the princess in the story... in the end, the pilot, did not give her the book.. i guess he knew his book was nothing compared to what her husband did.. but he has the heart to want to do things that he knows the girl wants.. he did it without any ill intentions, he just did things that he felt that will make the ger happy...
the things he did.... i saw someone in him.... it's just all too familiar... sometime back... Samatha asked me... is it worth it to hold on.. like keep liking or do things for a person special to you, when it seems futile in all aspects.. i asked her, then do you only do things that are worth your while.... esepcially when you are talking about a special someone... you do things out of your heart... you want to do things for him/her... to make him/her happy.. if you start questioning your purpose... i'm afraid that ur heart is weakened...
thats the case with alot of girls i see these days... especially those attached... as long as someone gives her more attention, she will be inclined to him.. fuck the boyfriend... then i think they shouldnt be too unforgiving when her husband gets appreciation from another woman after they are married...
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1:18 PM.