Thursday, September 21, 2006
[[Low]]
saw Jian Lun just now... he told me Alvin is going to get charged for play AWOL.. seems the guys back at Amoy Quee only saw him for a couple of times after we left... it's also the 2nd time I heard that he's getting married... Jianlun asked if I knew his gf was pregnant... i can't be bothered about his domestic affairs... my blood just boiled when I knew about absence from camp.. even before I ORDed, he was already playing a fool.. whenever there were Exercises, he's never around... I just can't accept it, I just don't understand why the Best Commander went to him instead of me... I was there for the Branch all the way... I never ever forsake them... Even if I wasn't the best IntSpec, I gave my best effort.. I was always there to support S2 sir... I may not come out tops where my combat capabilities are concerned, but in no way am I inferior to that fucker who don't even behave like a responsible commander...
Superwoman and Deynse are sweet.. they are the 2 few people who would ask about me when they see a change in my nick... i told them.. sometimes, it's really hurtful when you are neglected, not appreciated when you do things out of your heart...
Today, I'm feeling low again... whenever I run out of things to sustain my loony self, reality sets in, and my dark self emerges... not evil la.. juz moody, gloomy....
I remember the msg S2 sent to thank me for the coffee I left for him when I ORD... I guess that was the only one thing that I really feel appreciated for from the Branch...
The only one person who let me feels appreciated... is Stellar... though that was in the past... it will always be something I won't forget...
i was here @
2:36 AM.