Thursday, August 31, 2006
[[Power and emotions are not enough...]]
Sometimes, you want to do something, but you just lack the power to accomplise it..
This is what's happening now.. I sit down and stare at the tutorials, but I do not know how to do it.. I envy the guys in Seed Destiny.. in this fantasy world of theirs.. they desire to set things right... and they are bestowed with the power to do just that...
I feel powerless... as with some of the things that have happened before.. It's maddening to see things happen.. You know it's wrong... yet you are helpless....
it's ok to fail.. as long as you have done ur best... but it is also sad that people dont see your effort... life is indeed fastpaced... but it's no excuse for being blind.. we must learn not to miss out on the small things in life...
it's not that I don't want to be GL... also don't understand why everyone thinks i should be GL... I feel that all our past experiences make us the man we are today.. In my case, I don't like to be right in the front leading.. because I can never be sure that people will be there to back me up... But I like to be standing behind others, because I know that I will always stand up to anything that I feel is wrong. Of course that will have to depend on whether or not I know what to do about it...
In the past, army, Leong, When I needed help, I was left to die.... no one stepped forward when they saw something was wrong... that's why I can never bring myself to ignore anything that needs to be done... It's just not me.... It's not about being heroic or righteous... it's just that I knows how it feels to need help.. Its fucking fucked up to stand by and watch.. You will savour your just desserts...
I envy Kira... I want to be like him.. He's a hero...
saw this that day with amanda... this astro boy seems to be doing an angmor valgur sign
My new $159 bag which looks like a solar panel/ SAF mealbag...
Just like a racing buckle
i was here @
2:08 AM.