Sunday, May 14, 2006
[[The Lone Ranger]]
sorry about it... guessed I flared up cos I got sick of doing doing doing things for people all the time and yet.. be that lone ranger...
didnt do anythg for my ma today... I don't know what to do... I had been trying to think of something to do, but couldn't come up with any... I had wanted to like bring Ma out to eat, just Mother and son, but I didnt.. I was still thinking last night... but the way she treated me... I feel sian... maybe I think too much.. but I don't like it.. I, as a kid, spoke up for her to Pa.. Yet, she always don't know how to talk to me properly, or stop telling me things like I don't know how to think maturely... Don't tell me that all parents will think like that. Why can't people have a mind of their own and act differently? I just get sian when I want to do things for people, yet I don't get the due respect or the appreciation... I don't need to be rewarded.. Just make me feel my worth...
I miss you... You are the only one person who ever let me feel this way... The only one who ever appreciated me, regardless how little I did for you... But now, even you forget me...
Spoke up for Pa... He scolded me "Nothing you do ever give me any confidence"
Spoke up for Ma... Everyday still kao pei me
Brother... spoke to Pa about him so that Pa not so guai lan with him anymore, but when he use the com again, don't know how to fucking think...
Ok.. my ah gong and ah ma don't give me problems...
Suffer like shit in SISPEC, but Leong ran off with another guy.. then the other, always say I never do things, never do enough.. always kena scolded...
The Branch forgot about me so easily...
This kind of shit has been goin on for so long... Yet, I still do what I always do... Stepping forward to see if there's anything I can do.. But who does for me? At least make me feel appreciated..
i was here @
9:37 PM.