Wednesday, May 17, 2006
[[Hostel or no hostel?]]
Had a full supper just now.. Frog legs.. then prata.. need to swim tomorrow...
The topic about staying in the hostel came up... Lion said it would be terok to travel to and fro Sengkang and NTU... But I don't know man... I don't feel good being away from home for so long... it's going to be 4 yrs... it's only 2 years in the army, and the household became like that... In this house, the people are either making all the mistakes or they see things going wrong yet only grumble and scold but not doing anything about it...
Things are improving by a little bit after I sort of fuck my Pa about his stupid way of thinking... Feel that I have to be here or this household is going to go haywire again... Not that I'm boasting or trying to be noble.. There's nothing to be noble about keeping the family together... Since I'm the only dumb bloke stepping forward to do the shit.. it can't be help... A simple thing like clearing the dustbin, no one knows how to do.. everyone only knows how to finger-point or scold.. Nabei, just get off your ass and do the shit la... I'm like the bloody encik of this house...
Cheryl said I have been too involved recently... But what can I do? Just sit by and watch on as this hosehold disintegrate meh? People tell me.. I also got problem, just that I never say... My family also like that... etc
If you see that there's something not right, then by all mean, do something about it la.. What's the point in swallowing it.. It's not going to go away.. Unless you can live it down and swallow the shit, otherwise go take the bllody bull by its horns and yank them hard..
It may never turn out the way you want it to be, but at least you have taken a first step.. You never know what lies ahead ma... Some things are just worth this effort...
It's fast... Next week, I will bee out of the force already... ORD... it jsut doesn't appeal to me that much any more.. so what about it? Lost too much in my journey to this point... sian right?
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2:21 AM.