[ Tots of the Gundam Prince ]

Friday, April 28, 2006

[[BUSY BUSY]]

It's a whole rojak of shit this weeks man!

The worst of it is my Bday stint this Sat.. It's the day after tmr, yet I still feel so ill-prepared. Just can't shake this lingering feeling off... I feel that the deco is not enough.. the programme not engaging enough... People dropping out even now... People telling me they don't have uniform... There's a mountain of shit in my head... I'm worried that that day, the crowd would be like dead fish... Damn, the response is already lukewarm now... It's unnerving...

I haven't done my final prep.. I want to go back camp tmr to kop stuff, and use the printer to print stuff.. but I don't know what I want to print.. I'm thinking of doing a report book-like door gift for everyone...

Hell....

My lucky bracelet's powers don't seem to be working its magic on this...

But, I have to give it credit for the other woncders it worked for me... Just received my letter of notification from NTU today.. It tells me that I am sucessful in changing my course to EEE. It's so fast. I jsut had my interview on Monday.. Think I must have wowed the Dean. HAHAHA... he seemed qutie happy speaking to me tt morning. I was a hell one and a half hours early.. Record timing! Prof Gwee said there would eb 3 interviewers. Guess I was so early, that they weren't even there yet.. I spoke rather fluently to the Dean. I was able to carry across my message and express my interest clearly in him. Guess that was what pulled me through. Thank you Cubby for guiding me so patiently to the place!

Hmmm.. Honestly, I don't really know what lies ahead for me in EEE. Although I have been saying, and I feel that I like electronic gadgets, I don't really have a clear idea of how I am going to walk down this path. It was kind of like deja vu for me. It was like back then how I fought arm and limb to stay in the Intelligence Branch. I wasn't really sure why I wanted to be in the Branch. However, I knew that it's not my destiny to be a clerk in the rifle companies. So, I went to upgrade myself back to combat status. I fought to stay in the Branch. I suceeded! Over this 1 year in my Intelligence Branch, I affrimed that my decision then was the right one. Even though, I have been actively involved in the Swim Team, and the guys always think that I'm slacking, I feel that I am really working here. My branch is one of the few places that I really feel an attachment to, a sense of belonging to. I loved what I did as an Intelligence Specialist. I took pride in what I did. Although I would try to cut corners, I never thought of abandoning my Branch.. Whenever they needed anything, I would try my best for them. I am so attached to the Branch that when my Ma calls to ask what I am doing in camp, I say I am doing work.. I always tell my junior Specialists that if there's anything they do not know, they can call me. It's not to wayang. What's there to wayang? I'm going to ORD... I just want to help them out as a big brother... That's why I was quite sad when they like ignored me after I returned to camp after my Swimming Training was over... It has always been like this.. Always Disregarded..

I saw the trailer for Fast and Furious 3. The guy said.. "All my life, people tell me I don't fit in. Maybe I'm just in the wrong place"

I found my place in the Branch. Or so I thought.. Even then.. I felt distant, yet I also felt close to the Branch..

Damn.. all that blabble... Ya my lucky bracelet did bring me some gd fortune in more ways than one. Other than the Bday shit... things seems ok these days.. Family seems ok now... I stayed home to eat today.. Feel that I have been going out too much... Last night my Gu Gu and ah ma cook something different. But I wasn't in to eat.. Sometimes when i eat out, I get the feeling that my ah ma wants me to eat at home. It's not that she is angry or what.. I feel that it's a joy for her to cook for her Grandson.. Then yesterday went out, never see mama aso. I have been very nasty to her recently also. Don't know why. Bloody fucker.. This Sat, I just want say how I feel about my family. It won't be long. Just something simple.. Don;t know if I will cry when I say that.. Now already tearing when I think of my family...

I was surprised you told me that you are mailing me my Bday present together with Strawberry's. I thought you 2 are sharing the same present.. Didn't expect that S.Berry would get me a present after the tongue lashing in the blog.. Didn't expect you to have your own present either... I'm happy. Hope nobody says I think too much again... I mean it's natural ma... Suddenly, I feel like getting my Gundam to take me to you again. But think that nite I will be made drunk....

If I can have just one wish.

i was here @
1:13 AM.

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

[[PiCS and shit]]

The trophy

Where to put this? Cabinet no space...

Wearing bloody formal for my interview at NTU...

My lucky bracelet

After getting this bracelet... my luck coincidentally improved a little.. but, I don't believe in such things.. I don't believe that my life is controlled by things other than me.. Pa has been ok with me, other than the car shit.. I need to be nicer to Ma...

Been very edgy.. hven planned for my Bday yet.. haizzz..

i was here @
4:09 AM.

Sunday, April 23, 2006

[[Irritants]]

Finally. the bloody DVD burner gave my successful burns... Not really Successful though.. My initial D compliation is not in th 16:9 ratio, however my Homemade Intial Dick, in the same disc, is in 16:9 ratio.. And my Macross Zero is so soft!!!!!

Bloody hell!!!!

Somebody or something just has to get into my bad books today... Was driving the family to lunch earlier.. Then there was this blue Taxi.. (PS: FUCK this cab company, 2nd time their cabbies gave me probs) and another private car which just drove off the shoulder and into my lane without looking... Bloody fuckers.. surprise surprise... First time I used my horns.. Think it was just a formality.. I was already starting to swerve my car around them... As expected, kena fucked upside my my father again.

"When you see other people don't stop for you, you must be ready to stop!!!"

Haiya.. from my assessment, I have one full bloody lane to the right of the 2 fuckers, so I have more than enough space to siam them what.. It's not like I pulled the handbrake and skidded or what.. What's the big deal.. If only my father were Bunta

*takes a puff* see that drain over there. Hook the tires and go around these ameuters *takes another puff*

And there's this stupid guard at my house.. I simply see no point in deploying a security guard in the gym. What is the purpose of that? "Hey young man! Don't steal the dumbbells! Or police will catch you ah.."

I don't even see the point in employing old folks as guards. It's not that I look down on old folks.. If they wanna work, by all means, please do. But as Security Guards? Can they even take care of themselves? Their presence will not deterring would-be perpetrators, in fact they will ENCOURAGE them... I rather bogus CCTV cams are deployed in their place. Scarecrow tactics worked better.. As proven by our army..

BUTTTTTT...... what really put me off was the bloody response by this old woman Guard. I asked her to open up the function rooms for me to peek a look. I need to prep my layout first. No time that day.. But, the stupid woman was so reluctant. Saying the managment say cannot la.. Cannot let us look...

Like what sia? I have went into that room before, and I am a resident man.. WHy can't I look at my own function room.. I work in the Batthalion Security Branch, I don't need no Old witch or Management to tell me that I am no cleared to look at my own house's function room. The wicth added that I can only see the room if I had booked it. I had fucking booked the fucking room.. Even in camps, a Letter of Authority gives you the right of passaged to most lowly classified objects.

WHy? Does the fuction room have a state-of-the-art Green ray DVD player that has not been disclosed to the market?

Bloody stupid.

i was here @
7:48 PM.

Saturday, April 22, 2006

[[Birthday wishlist (Updated)]]

--> New No 1: Twin Deck Turn Table.. From Denon or Technics... I don't mind 2nd or whatever hand.. I need to practise spinning!

When we were having out DJ class last nite.. Some reporters came to interview the instructors and snapped a few shots of us... But we didn't appear in today's New Paper.. Maybe they want to publish us something of a bigger scale like The Straits Times or FHM...

1. Toyota MR2 (SW20) or RX-7 (FC3S) Either cars are old cars, under $30k each
2. Any manual car
3. BMW Advanced driving lessons
4. Force Feedback Gaming wheels, eg. Logitech Momo designed wheel, Microsoft Wingman, etc
5. A personnal Maximum Tune 2 game machine at home.
6. Most of wishes to come true.
7. Parents don't guai lan with me.
8. A wife
9. A baby
10. Electronic products job.
11. Simple laptop
12. DVD writer and lots of DVD-Rs 1
3. A Divx readable DVD player
14. A more powerful computer to play my Need for Speed: Most Wanted & Undergrd 2
15. 10 more hard disk to store my illegal downloads.
16. Gundam model kits?

Though I really do not have any more space for anymore... if i am going to get any.. I would like a

1- Lightning Edition Strike Freedom
2- Freedom Gundam (MG) Followed by those on my Dream Toys list haha..

What else I want sia? i noe.... everyone to havoc and raelly enjoy themselves that day!

i was here @
3:30 PM.

[[PICS and shit]]

Home-made Mirror Ball, Half done

The rat has been caught.. I shall employ nipple clips on its rat balls

Kelvin speeding in his Turbo-Tuned Piccanto

Guys... next time wanna go drink... do call along people we know... cos people like me are poor after paying for our own drinks. Besides, we are not really into paying for other people, whom we do not know bloody well, who run off halfway.

i was here @
4:27 AM.

Friday, April 21, 2006

[[Miss Old School]]

Spent the morning cutting out the trophy for MISS OLD SCHOOL... Looks like I still live up to my title as Best in Design & Technology back in Montfort.. Hahaha

Shit.. Ask n Learn just called... I did the e-prep too late... the GV tiks are out of stock.. AHHH!!!!!

My Operating Table

Don't worry me lady... I'll be gentle with you

WAHAHAHAHA!!!!!

Shit! I broke her arm... Women's arms are so weak.

Do i look like Rambo tightening his Bow?

Precision work.. I was born a carpenter

I broke the bloody Star too

Keep still there!!!

Going for interview later for some Handphone promoter in June at Expo.. Hope I get the job.. haha

i was here @
2:34 PM.

Thursday, April 20, 2006

[[Today]]

Father bought a DVD burner for me as Bday present... He talked to me properly today.. That's good... Hope it stays this way... Rather he bought a car...

Buttttttttttttttttttt... the bloody burner is now hanged.... The program freeze-framed though the counter is still moving... SHIT!!!!!! what the hell is going on...

And there is still the rat problem in my house....

Should the bloody rodent ever cross my path... I am going to stuff a bloody cat dick into his rat arse...

i was here @
1:35 AM.

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

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http://www.benq.com.sg/products/product.cfm?product=634

http://benq.com/products/product.cfm?product=604&type=3&page=features

i was here @
8:34 PM.

[[House of Pest]]

Bloody damn shit.... The people of this house have to fucking rely on me to maintain the cleaniness.... 20 years living in Singapore... First time I see a fucking rat run across my kitchan.. it's like almost 7in long la.... The fucking household don't know how to clear the rubbish... I am always the one clearing the dustbin late at night... Bloody fuckers.. I always have to be the one to cover thier asses.. clean their shit... Now have to bloody call an exterminator... Hope the fucking rodent stays in the kitchen... If it bites me, my things or my gundams... it's going to be sorry...

Saw this in an email... quite true.. haha

-----------------MAY BABY -----------------
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint.Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. If you repost this in the next 5 minutes, you will become close to someone you do not speak to much in the next 4 days.

i was here @
1:59 AM.

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

[[Hell lot of things to do... >Rojak entry<]]

Just went to sign up for a basic DJ course with DJ Lion... We sure are crazy.. Hopefully we can pick up a thing or two in time for Old School Party..

Just downloaded Macromedia Flash 8 too.. going to learn that soon i hope..

So many things I haven't done/tried out yet..

- Game creator I downloaded for my PSP
- mp3 RSS feeder for PSP
- ADobe Photoshop digital imaging book I borrowed from the library
- Macromedia Flash
- Call Mrs Seth about my Old Sch Party
- Book my dental FFI
- Create a Flickr account (or would someone recommend a better online photo album?)
- Add a DIY wall paper for my display
- Finalise my Party shit (I don't know what to do sia)
- Think of my speech (it's really tough now, given the current circumstances)
- Get a job.. I want electronic gadets sales

Bought a Justice Gundam too just now... Crazy shit la.. No more space to put liao la...

Some suggestions... which is nicer?

Design 1

or

Design 3?

So much things on my hand..HOW????

Added 2 wallpapers to my display,

The wallpaper can't seem to show the effect leh

Stellar!!! Two hearts, in need

And to sum up the rojak of photos

Movie cum supper 160406

Old Sch Party's next week... I have plans that night... But I need my "Gundam" to take me where I want to go... Even if stupid father refuses to let me have the car, as he always fucking does without any logical reason, I will get there one way or another... Please guys, let me off just for a while and after that I'm all yours...

Sometimes, you don't really know what lies ahead.. But that shouldn't stop you from trying, rite? GTO said this... He inspired me alot... He said; if you want to do anything, be the best you can be! However, in my case, I can't be the best in the world. I can only be the best I can be, in my own power. Because, in my case, there really isn't anything that will come out of it... If a computer were to access my situation, it would definitely say it's illogical to carry on. Most people nowadays think this way.

No point in doing things that has no outcome... But I beg to differ... I don't want to do things just because I am assured of sucess. I don't want to do things just because of the outcome of my actions. It's like using a Gameshark for my own life... I enjoy the process of my actions... To me, it's more meaningful than the outcome. It takes the fun out of trying, when you know you will definitely get what you want..

Even though, I know it will never be... I will never get what I hope for... But I won't just sit on my hands and look on... "If I say I can't do anything at all and don't do anything about it, Then nothing will really happen."

Kira said that... Even I know nothing really won't happen, I still have some hope in this sentence... Maybe someday I will finally reach the place I want to go...

Right now... All I wish for, is my "Gundam" to take me there... What lies beyond that... I will have to find out myself...

i was here @
2:24 AM.

Sunday, April 16, 2006

[[A post on Friendster bulletin]]

When you were 8 years old, your mom handedyou an ice cream. You thanked her by dripping itall over your lap. When you were 9 years old,she paid for piano lessons. You thanked her bynever even bothering to practice. When youwere 10 years old she drove you all day, fromsoccer to football to one birthday party afteranother. You thanked her by jumping out of thecar and never looking back. When you were 11years old, she took you and your friends to themovies. You thanked her by asking to sit in adifferent row. When you were 12 years old, shewarned you not to watch certain TV shows. Youthanked her by waiting until she left the house.When you were 13, she suggested a haircut thatwas becoming. You thanked her by telling hershe had no taste. When you were 14, she paidfor a month away at summer camp. You thankedher by forgetting to write a single letter. Whenyou were 15, she came home from work, lookingfor a hug. You thanked her by having yourbedroom door locked. When you were 16, shetaught you how to drive her car. You thanked herby taking it every chance you could. When youwere 17, she was expecting an important call.You thanked her by being on the phone allnight. When you were 18, she cried at your highschool graduation. You thanked her by stayingout partying until dawn. When you were 19, shepaid for your college tuition, drove you to campuscarried your bags. You thanked her by sayinggood-bye outside the dorm so you wouldn't beembarrassed in front of your friends. When youwere 25, she helped to pay for your wedding, andshe cried and told you how deeply she loved you.You thanked her by moving halfway across thecountry. When you were 50, she fell ill andneeded you to take care of her. You thanked herby reading about the burden parents become totheir children. And then, one day, she quietlydied. And everything you never did came crashingdown like thunder on YOUR HEART. If you loveyour MOM, repost this bulletin saying "i cried" ifyou don't... then u obviosly don't care if your momdies...

i was here @
1:27 AM.

Friday, April 14, 2006

[[Old School Party'06]]

click here

I saw a light... A flicker at the end of the seemingly endless tunnel... What was that? Let it be my Birthday wish... I wish upon a star for it to happen... I can fuck care father's stupid car... Or whatever... I can forgo them all... I will do anything...

i was here @
7:44 PM.

Thursday, April 13, 2006

[[Birthday Wishlist]]

1. Toyota MR2 (SW20) or RX-7 (FC3S)
Either cars are old cars, under $30k each

2. Any manual car

3. BMW Advanced driving lessons

4. Force Feedback Gaming wheels, eg. Logitech Momo designed wheel, Microsoft Wingman, etc

5. A personnal Maximum Tune 2 game machine at home.

6. Most of wishes to come true.

7. Parents don't guai lan with me.

8. A wife

9. A baby

10. Electronic products job.

11. Simple laptop

12. DVD writer and lots of DVD-Rs

13. A Divx readable DVD player

14. A more powerful computer to play my Need for Speed: Most Wanted & Undergrd 2

15. 10 more hard disk to store my illegal downloads.

16. Gundam model kits? Though I really do not have any more space for anymore... if i am going to get any..
I would like a

1- Lightning Edition Strike Freedom
2- Freedom Gundam (MG)
Followed by those on my Dream Toys list

haha..

What else I want sia?

i noe.... everyone to havoc and raelly enjoy themselves that day!

i was here @
12:28 PM.

Tuesday, April 11, 2006

[[Miss you all]]

Damn... ORD is round the corner... i'm still slacking... Right now, I wanna prepare for the Old School Party, thought I don't really know what to do also...

Anyway, I will miss these things after I leave the Force.

My Swim Team

The Lion's Den LAN gaming room that I set up

My Branch's internet com

Int and Ops Branch 2005.. where was I looking?

My tent

My classroom

Marksmanship. One shot shy of full score

Looking back,

After sweat and pain... yet I didn't get what I fought for

The fake smile

Dickhead

I hate to drink

Intelligence Specialist course

i was here @
11:58 PM.

[[Repost.. Montfort Knights]]

Don't know what happened man. I can't access my own blog but others can since last night. Removed this post.. well, reposting..

before I mixed with bad company

I turned to the dark side

worrying when will the principal sut my backside again

then, I decided to mend my ways and become GTB... Great Teacher Ben

Let's make this a GREAT day party together!

The Bad Company

Womaniser cum Sengkang monster.. prey on all kinds of woman

Going to another school to prey on gers

i was here @
6:46 PM.

Monday, April 10, 2006

[[Funeral Party]]

22nd left one room, too small; 29th have to find out later... But some can only come on 22nd, some can only come on 29th... Then Old School response just lukewarm...

Hey, the theme's changed... I holding my funeral at one of the void decks. Plenty of space; hold for one week, you can pick any day to come down at your own comfort; don't need to look for school uniform, just dress in black or white...

Wake up already? Thought of asking how you think..

i was here @
12:44 PM.

[[WAKE UP]]

Don't everytime like fucking play me out la... Wake up, wake up

i was here @
11:15 AM.

[[Funeral]]

First time celebrating.... But so much problems... this is can, that one cannot, don't want to comfirm, bo liao...

Mightas well just hold a funeral... One whole week. Confirm everyone can at least come down one day..

i was here @
10:55 AM.

[[Headache]]

Why those that are game can't make it... Is it a bad call? I don't know man... Also don't know why I am doing this...

i was here @
10:31 AM.

[[Old School Party 22 April]]

Hope everyone is game enough. So far about half are game.. either wearing their own Uniform or borrowing.. I need some games and forfeits...

And the dress code is:

Tie short short, rolled-up sleeves

Unbuttoned top, sharp comb, sports shoes, ie Adidas, Nike Shox, folded up pants

Short skirt, cute tie

Minus the belt

JPG wallet, sharp comb, baggy pants

If you really can't find school uniform, you can always try this...

i was here @
12:09 AM.

Saturday, April 08, 2006

[[VEry sian]]

Like no one on, or lend their support... Old sch party, say no uniform, pool party, say don't wanna play... All say just have a normal one... Then sian rite

i was here @
4:10 PM.

[[Pool Party; family]]

Changed my mind.. thk it will be a pool party instead... Don't know la... Just anyhow say... Don't know if I have games, would anyone play... At my place?

If other place, want to ferry the things here and there, that fellow also won't let me use the car...

I need help, guys. Hope the people would be game enough...

Decided that the next time I rent car... I would ask my brother along... Let him try... feel that this can be a way we can sort of like bond.. We are brothers. But yet we are not close...

Sometimes I just want to fit back into this family, but cannot...

When I was in my Basic Section Leader's course in SISPEC, I never once lost an equipment, something which my platoon mates were fond of doing... My Section Commander wrote in my interview booklet that I was ver disciplined in securing my stores and keeping them. I told mother that this was because of father's teachings. Whenever we are outfield, I would check and double-check my stuff that everything's in place... I wanted father to be proud that his son learned his ways...

Yet, till now... He never let me feel proud of myself. Only otherwise.

I told mother too, back then. Thank you for like caring for me and stuff, when Leong broke up with me. Cos I was left all alone back then, clueless, helpless.

Yet, till now... She always keeps quiet and turn me away when I approach her my troubles. Because she has no solution for me and she kena from father also.

I can't find another pair of parents until in GTO like the students found Onizuka, who will fight for their well being irregardless of his own...

All my life, I try to make the people close feel their worth. Yet, in the end, I can't turn to them to seek shelter... Either they left me or they scold me...

Only my Grandparents don't treat me like shit. But I don't know what I can do for them... I can only appreciate my ah ma's cooking and speak politely to them. When my Gu Gu told me that my ah gong told her that he is happy that I talk to him properly, and when he approach me for help, I would always help him. I am happy because I seldom know that I am doing anything right, or even letting anyone feel happy because of my actions. Ironically, I did the least for my grandparents. I want to be there to send them off. I feel that it would be what they would have wanted. Anyone who stands in way or so much so as to hinder me, I will kill them.

So long never cry liao. Feel very comfortable. Remember,last time, I used to cry to you too, as you also did to me?

Think you have forgotten all that already.

i was here @
3:25 AM.

[[Going to revamp FREEDOMETEOR]]

This place is too messy.. A whole mambo-jambo of news and nonsense I compiled....

There's car rental shit, PSP shit, Project P shit, gundam shit, Games site shit... There's so much shit, I don't know how it got here in the first place...

There has got to be some organisation here man.. I need some time... Hell, each time I turn on the computer, it's either Need for Speed Most Wanted or Need for Speed Underground 2... Even Alex commented when I'm in the arcade, it's Maximum Tune 2.. It's getting to my head... Ever since the fateful skid... Next up, either a Civic 1999 or Imprezza 2000. Rental on weekdays at $60... I'm not too sure, someone enlighten me please. Is that the Civic from "The Fast and the Furious" and the Imprezza that Bunta drove?

Alritey then, when freedometeor is up again... I don't expect it to be a one stop site for information... but it'll contain everything that I know, and I hope will be of use to the guys sharing the same interest..

> List and recommendations of PSP video converters, articles, etc

> List of car rentals I know of

>Tidying up my links and stuff

Alex said he will try to get more people here. So from now on, I must include more positive entries.

"Guess what I did today? I helped an old lady cross the street.. I rescued a kitten from a tree.. I caught a thief.."

No ordinary man could have done all this. For I have a secret identity.....