Sunday, January 15, 2006
[[End of my time]]
I didn't do that well in the swim meet.. Freestyle Bronze. Butterfly lost. Freestyle 4 x 50m team Silver..
I could have gotten a bronze for Butterfly
What ever I was good at before, are all slipping through my fingers... Everything that was my beaming pride and most treasured possessions, all fading away.
It doesn't really matter that much that I didn't win at the finals.. I know my time in the swimming pool is up.. I have done it before... My time is done..
But, all the time and feelings built up over the years are just disipating... I can't accept it...
We are not meant to be like this... Humans are not meant to forget.. I didn't forget.. I had always remembered... How could you have forgotten about me and give up on everything...
Now I try my best not to forget anything... I try to fill up all the notches I leave behind...
Don't give on our friendship...
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For one thing, I never seem to get it right... No matter what I do.. Either there is a misunderstanding or it just never goes as planned. Why? We always never fail to crash head on into each other. I always want to do something.. truely out of the heart.. but I always fail...
i was here @
1:40 AM.