Thursday, December 29, 2005
[[The End]]
Bloody hell... got blackout in the middle of the night last night.. and I type so much... shit
I feel that I have already accomplised all that I want to...
My pa is ok now after I talked to him, so my family is more or less ok..
i hv helped my Branch thru this yr and prepared it for the new specialists.
I got my license liao.
I had already been in the swimming team..
All is done.. My job's done.. I have accomplised all that I have set out to do for myself this year..
No more outstanding issues.
There may be one thing left...
But I lacked my sword... I need my prayers to be answered
I think I know why I like Jap anime so much..
It's about the lives depicted inside... It's full of ups and downs, sometimes more downs.. Very much like our evreryday lives... Unlike those dis-illusioned idol dramas...

The character is the animes have tough lives like I do... They have dreams like I do.. We all try very hard to achieve what we desire... Never giving up... But what sets us apart is the a small little thing which stnads between us and success. The character have it, I don't.
In Daiku Maryu Gaiking, Daiya had the power of Gaiking to help him in the search of his father... He stubbornly believed that his father never died... for five years, no matter how people scorned and mocked at him, he firmly believed... Finally he was bestowed upon this gift like no other...
In Gundam, especially SEED and SEED Destiny, the story is just me... Kira is like me... All the shit he been through... He was always looking out for his friends... He only wanted to protect the ones he cared for, often forgetting about himself... The ones he cared for neglected him too.. After their lives improved, they all forgotten about him... It's only when they though he had died and when they needed him, then did they treasure... Despite all that, Kira came back for them... He cared for them no matter what... However he lacked the ability to do so.. He is only one man..
Which was why Lacus gave him his Freedom Gundam.. Which he calls his sword... It took him to where he to where he wanted to go and help him to fulfill his dreams... But where is my sword. He and I desire the same things in life... But I lack my sword.. Lacus told him, power and emotions alone are not enough... Till the day I can fully understand what is needed, I guess I'll have to bear with this agony of being helpless.. Just watching my life pass me by...
i was here @
10:18 AM.