[ Tots of the Gundam Prince ]

Monday, October 31, 2005

[[Blue on Blue]]

Crossfire.

At least tell me first. Nealry crossfire with the other Athrun with his Skyline. Now this Athrun too. What A surprise I got... Imagine the shock... Don't know what to say... In a blur...

Friendship is more important... Evertime like that, I also sian.... Feel like an idiot

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8:12 AM.

Sunday, October 30, 2005

[[No title again]]

Went back camp today for a while to blow up some maps... What a hardworking IntSpec I am.. Hahaha...

Watched Ong Bak just now.. now my neck feels pain... like sprained... Did he kneed me from the TV?? Pain sia...can't bend forward..

Tomorrow still have to go camp for bloody cohesion run... stupid shit... sian...

Is that all? Fucking boring

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11:58 PM.

Saturday, October 29, 2005

[[No Title...the sequel]]

Why am I always not understood? I only want to know the reason as to why it happened back then. I only wanted to know what went wrong. What the fuck is wrong with that?

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11:22 AM.

[[No title]]

Block leave next week, but don't know what to do. No plans. Sian...

Int Sgt told me that he will be more active in the Higher HQ to aid in his advancement, thus, I'll be assuming his duties in the Battalion. I wanted something to look back upon in the future. This seems to be it. However, I'm apprehensive. I still don't have what it takes to do a good enough job. I maybe looking forward to this, yet, I resent the idea.

PS: It would have be 3 and a half years on Thursday. Its not that I can't forget her. I know what I think. Just that sometimes, I look back on my life and think. I still don't have the answer to this riddle, not that it bothers me... Just feel that everything has to be accounted for.

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2:55 AM.

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

[[Sianzzz]]

Have a half-day off today, cos S2 sir gave Jon and I the opportunity to run cross country under 3DIV tomorrow, thus escaping outfield too.. Hahaha..

Haizzz... but God alwas the last laugh... Its downright ironic that whenever I have an off day, I can't find anything to do...

This fellow not free, that fellow eaten liao, another fellow......etc

Like so qi cham sia...

Fucked up shit

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8:46 PM.

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

[[Me]]

Who am I?

Int spec.

Is that all?

I want more out of my life

Do you know what you want?

Ya.

Sure anot?

Yes....and no

I don't what to do, how to do it.

Preparing for exercise these days.. Ok, you can say that I am quite proficient in blowing up maps... Thought I am good enough. But today, I realised I wasn't good enough. I want to be better. Still need to be better. Come November, Have to stand-in as acting Int Sgt. Was looking forward to it, but not so now...cos I know I'm not there yet...

What the fuck sia... Why can't I just be good in at least one thing? Jack of all trades, master of none... Fuck sia, I'm only Jack of some trades. I want more out of my unfulfilling life. There's more to this.. But what? I think I know the answer... And yet I don't..

There's so much I want to say, but no chance to. Today, Teo commented on Ram. Saying that he is just an Admin Spec after he was discharged, and that some people weren't happy that he behaved as though he was something bigger. What was wrong with that, I asked him. I asked Teo if he could accept it, to be an Admin Spec after going through SISPEC, PS tour, etc. He said no. I told him, if you don't fight for yourself, no one will. Yet it seems, I am not fighting for myself...

I just recalled too, that someone commmented that I always seemed to speak up for my friends. Anything wrong with that? Things that matter to you the most, if you don't know how to protect them, who will? Guess that's just me.... Always want to protect, also don't for fuck ah.. cos who protects me? Never mind, its ok. I still want to protect. But sometimes I'm unable to. I just lack it. Just as Kira needs his Freedom(Gundam), to protect.

Where's my Freedom?

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8:52 PM.

Sunday, October 23, 2005

[[Links]]

This is a site, supposedly teaching us how to remove an invisible partition in flash disks which will yield double the storage space.

http://www.esato.com/board/viewtopic.php?topic=95361&start=0

A How-To Guide

http://boardsus.playstation.com/playstation/board/message?board.id=pspmedia&message.id=61754

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12:14 PM.

Sunday, October 16, 2005

[[Boring]]

Think I choose NFSU Most Wanted over Rivals... Seem more interesting cos I will have to race against the cops to evade them..

It's been a rather boring weekend for me...

Thurs
Booked out at 11 cos we were anticipating a MSD check, so worked overtime.

Friday
Off day... But didn't do anything. Only went gym with Jinjin n Zhentai. Then at night went 401.

Saturday
Breden(spell correctly?) and Nicole came, but didn't really play with them also... Then at night went with Alex to his "gf"'s Bday, followed by Cadet Wai's..

Sunday
Worst. AT home the whole day..went gym myself.. haizz

Like the 40 yr old virgin sia.... Like what they say, can go fuck spider liao

Next week busy..

Tues and Sunday driving

Wed and Thursday Map Planning Exercise

Saturday Guard Duty

Eagerly waiting for my PSP, for the guy to contact me.... But life isn't just all this right?

What else should be done?

What else should have happened?

Or rather, should be happening?

Things that you want, if even you don't fight for it, no one will.

If I just say I can't do anything and don't do anything at all. Then, nothing will change.

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10:39 PM.

Saturday, October 15, 2005

[[PSP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!]]

Well...waiting eagerly for it now.... Crazy shit... I went to research on it, and even added a PSP section under my links..

Well, for those interested, ver 2.50 is already out.. With an additional hardware, its seems you can watch TV programmes on the PSP... Just check ou the links gentlemen...

Have in mind, 3 games liao..

-Need for Speed Underground Rivals/Most Wanted(Still thinking)
-Gundam Battle Tactics(DIE DIE MUZ GET!!)
-Star Wars Battle Front 2

I'm one crazy bastard... Saw kelvin's E680i last night... Felt like getting one too... Hahaha..

Hmmm... I'll be having my first Map Planning Exercise with my branch next week.. I'm worried that I cannot perform. I don't want to let them down. I don't wan to let myself down... Ex. Buckspeed and Ex. Tigerjack.... I must do it.. By hook or by crook...

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9:46 AM.

Monday, October 10, 2005

[[Hmmm]]

The internet computers in camp block most of the downloads now.. so sian... not that I have much time to surf now any way.. 2 exercises for the rest of this year... But what sia.. Can't blog in camp... If I chance upon stuff online, I can't log it down.. Sianzzz

S2 branch has officially turned the Internet room into a LAN-Gaming cafe.. Hahaha.. Even S2 Sir played Soldier of Fortune with us.. Now he is asking for Real-Time-Strategy based games.. Planning huh? Up la!

Heard there will be checks every week now. Might as well... Since our branch is also running low on beverages... So we need to go steal instant coffee and stuff from the company lines...

Went PS with the guys last night.. Think I'm fucking desperate for the PSP liao.... Spent $20 on the lottery machine trying to strike it... OMG! Spend nearly $30 that night on games and my PSP dream in all.. Now Jin Jin has converted his Maximum Tune card too.. I got a khaki liao. YEAH!!

What else lies ahead?

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Wednesday, October 05, 2005

[[Int Spec]]

Yup... that's what they refer to me as... Intelligence Specialist. Int Sgt says that I am the only trained Int Spec in the Battalion estab... so I have to know everything.. Hahaha.. that's just great. On top of it, S2 sir asks me to follow him and aid him during mission.. Pressure sia... Especially so when I forgot most of the things I have learnt as I was sleeping most of the time during the course..

Well, all that aside.. some how, I like what I am doing.. I somewhat love my job.. Hmmm... maybe because I know abit of my stuff... Think I was abit too pushy about telling something and S2 sir commented... Don't know if he was joking or what... In any case, I had better bucked up.. Otherwise, like what they say, I'm not value-added, or I can't add value to the Battalion..

Heard from Ngo that HQ block will be renovated.. S4 sir said something that we would die to hear back then.. We will have to stay out during the renovations as there are no bunks for us then... Not that we are staying out now, so much so that it doesn't really entice us much, but... oh well, in some way, we HQ Specs aren't that restricted at times... So.. at our own discretions la hor... In some sense, they are forcing us to stay out.. HAHAHA what a joke...

Eh soldier, you better stay out! Otherwise I'll fucking charge you!

What sia? Apparantly, that was what Support CSM said to an idiot who didn't want to go home. Even wet his own clothes as an excuse not to book out.. Still many of the guys would die to hear this..

In any case, my main concern now is to train up more to better fufil my appointment... Please help me everyone! I am proud of what I do. (PS: I am not afraid to carry a camera phone and I enjoy giving Turn-outs and Stand-to) I do not wish that when I tell people that I am an Int Spec and people will reply saying, "Orr that one ah... the guy who sabo the whole Battalion ah?"

No No No...cannot ah

PS: 1) I like what I do, but I still don't like the army on the whole.
2) I am a full-fledged combat Spec too, not a stay-out personnel.. The only difference is that we plan the fight, not plan to fight

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1:22 AM.

Sunday, October 02, 2005

[[Happy Children's Day]]

All thanks to my brother, the modem is confiscated by my Pa because of his excessive usage.. Can't blog, can't download my gundam, can't research for my PSP, etc.... Managed to get back the modem temporarily..

Hey guys, I'm really interested in getting a PSP now... If anyone of you know stuff about it, tag me k! So headache... Black or whte colour.... Ver 1.5(emulator) or Ver 2.0(Internet browser).... Jap or local ver.... So many questions

I had a really Happy Children's Day yesterday... Thank you mummy! It was a very special day for me yesterday. I felt special... Somehow I am lost... Don't know what I should be doing.. I don't know what the fuck am I doing...

HEY SOLDIER! WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM?

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This is what happens when both of my personality clashes... War ensues

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9:08 PM.