Saturday, April 16, 2005
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"what you should do and where you should go will represent themselves to you in due time..."well, it sort of occured to me what I should do. Which explains me voicing out to S1, And well fuck, I'm still a clerk. And fucking SAF makan my $200 from my IPPT Gold. All my friends got it why didnt I? Because I'm no longer taking IPPT because of my PES status. They are so quick to cheat me of this money. Yet they fuck care about the pay and status that I rightfully deserve. By the way, the test was taken last year. Way before my temporary downgrade. Eh, can't count ah jibye?
"even I have things I understand, but dont agree with..."~AthrunIn a seperate issue, this is how I feel about some things. Still, I dont really fully understand/comprehend them. Just feel neglected. I need understanding too. I'm willing to work, but only if I'm worked with cos I don't really know at times.
Sometimes I thought I knew, but on the ground, I realised I was wrong. Time and time again. I just feel so lousy. Morale is running low. Maybe I'll flip some day, like Kira? Even Athrun, who used to be more matured and calm, is slipping up now. I feel that I'm just not there yet. Even a 'man' talks back to me and I dont know what to do. I'm useless.
i was here @
12:59 PM.