Thursday, April 07, 2005
[[I feel better]]

WHAT SIA??? Hahaha....just for laughs.
Few days back, S1 came into my branch and jokded with S2 about him not having any Intspecs because of me. That was when I voiced out. Think I took everyone by surprise. Even I didnt expect myself to speak up suddenly then. I aired my displeasure, everything. S1 said people are trying to downgrade while I'm pushing to up-grade. I feel that I would have to serve my 2 years no matter what. In that case, I rather spend it meaningfully. So that I have something to look back on in future. I dont want to be a damn clerk. Fuck! After all that training. Finally, S1 said he would check it out and try to re-vocat me. Fucking hope things work out. Mummy was afraid I would get into trouble for my out-burst. However, I feel that as long as i prove my worth, they wouldnt give me much problem if they had the intention to. Hmmm...
Went TTSH yesterday for a follow-up. Mummy came all the way from Jurong to keep me company. Then we went to watch "the Pacifier" after that. Mummy bought Strepsils for my cough and Milk-flavored Pohky for me. Things that I needed and liked. I was surprised that she did all that. I felt loved. But I'm scared. I'm scared that I'm not doing enought. I'm scared of a deja vu. I'm scared I dont know how to treasure her.
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12:23 PM.