Thursday, April 28, 2005
[[Am i kira?]]
I went to upgrade today. Think I'm the only psycho NSF who would do such a thing. People trying so hard to down grade but though I am already halfway through the door, I turn back.
Hmm...this week I realised that my Intspec position is going to be replaced and I may end up in Support Company. Didnt know what to do. I want to stay on. Why I want to be an Intspec I dont know. I am surprised by my actions this time. I am really fighting for myself, pushing for it.
I dont know why I want so much to be an Intspec. However I understand what I must do to get there, and what must be done. I understand that along the way, there are things which must be done before I get to my goal. Even with the knowledge that I may not get to swim for 3Div at the end of the year, I go ahead. I feel that that part of my life has passed. This is what I should do now.
Why I decide on this? It may be that I dont know what lies ahead for me at Support, maybe I'm afraid. Nevertheless, I'm surprised at what I'm doing for myself now. I never stand up for myself before. However this time.....
Kira: What am I doing here?
Lacus: What You want to be, Kira?
Kira: I dont know.
Lacus: Do you not like it here?
Kira: I wonder if it is alright for me to be here.
Lacus: I would say of course it is.
Blind man: Where you should go and what you should do will represent themselves to you in due time.
Somehow I feel that I draw my inspiration from Gundam again. PS: I failed Advanced. Haizzz
i was here @
7:42 PM.