Tuesday, March 29, 2005
[[Alone...Unsure...Confused...Uncertain...Angry...etc]]
Absent for so long. Is it because I got nothing sad to put down, can't be bothered to blog, or what?
I don't know.
When I first started out with this, it was an avenue for me to vent my fustrations. so, is it the case today?
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This was how I felt a while ago.
Why must people always jump the gun and judge me wrongly? Wrongly!?
BLOODY FUCK LEHI just feel so useless. Sometimes I thought I got it right, but on the ground, I realised I was wrong. Why? I'm beginning to doubt my own judgement.
Please dont compare me with others. I'm different. See, look, get to know me better. Talk more. I want things to work out.
Thinking of approaching MO to certify me fit to go for IntSpec course. Too sian. want to do something.
i was here @
12:26 AM.
Monday, March 21, 2005
[[Do I go with the flow , or Do I say NO?]]
Why do people always judge me so negatively? What the fuck did i do to warrent this? Is it because I dont look like I'm a sweet, nice guy?
Not I dont want to do. It is the system. Its in the way la, COCK.. Please take into consideration me circumstances/predicament. ArmyMan's life is like FUCK la...U Jibyes outside wont know a shit k.
People ever so fast to judge me....in the wrong way.
Dont know what to say. It has always been like that ma. Things wont change for me de la. What's the point insaying so much?
Bo kah lan..FUCK CARE
i was here @
10:06 PM.
Thursday, March 17, 2005
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Sorry guys. I have left Sausage Inc. Haizz jinjin faster leh. Dont worry Alex, I'll help you get your little black girl. Haha...
It happened so fast. Found my Lacus liao.
Hope things will work out for us..
i was here @
2:34 PM.
Sunday, March 13, 2005
[[Trust]]
Hmmm....Five and a half day week for me again. Good Job ARMY!! Thanx leh!
NEH!!!
Trying to cock-up my show again right?? Try harder la.. Hmmm..but better not be too complacent. Because things always go wrong for me..
Tolong la!!!!!
Hmm...dont worry. How I feel and what I think, I myself know best. What's gone is gone. Dont worry.
i was here @
2:18 PM.
Thursday, March 10, 2005
[[Plsssssssssss la!]]
Came back to camp today to prepare for the PTP intake tomorrow. Nothing much. But, what the hell, I heard the nights out change to Wednesday night. Maybe that's why my eyebrow kept twitching the whole morning.
WHAT SIA!?!?!?!?!?!
Eh please la...dont like that leh. I was just hoping last night that all goes well and this has to happen? Cant anything just go right? Why do i always lake just that missing link? I did everything, prep everything, paved the way nicely. But the fucking "Greens" just jad to get in the way.
Why?
Can't you just
FUCK OFF?
Haizz...i miss mummy....
i was here @
12:54 PM.
[[i pray]]
I'm goinig back to Amoy Quee. Back to the way it was. No more Half-Days, no more Stay-Outs. Because I fucked-up at the swimming meet. Or maybe, it's time for this chapter of my life to close as another is about to open?
Whatever the case, I hope the Army, the cocked-up system, wont get in the way again.
Please.
I can't stop the Devil all the time.
i was here @
12:51 AM.
Tuesday, March 08, 2005
[[cock sia]]
My Butterfly event gone-f**ked. Well i expected it..I knew I wasnt good enough. Haizz
After that, I met mummy to go for our farm outing!! Haha...but horrors of all horrors! I couldnt find the farm! What sia!?! Took mummy on a wild goose chase. Luckily she never kill me for that. The pampered woman must shield herself with an umbrella some more..haizz
So bopian, we headed to town, as planned earlier, without visiting the stupid farm..Watched Hitch. Damn funny..Mummy ah mummy...got emotinal during one scene and threw away my pack of tissue when i offered it to her. Haha...
Cheer up! I'll try to fulfill the rest of your wish list!!
i was here @
10:27 PM.
[[HaPpY!!!!]]
A lot of shit happened man during this time.
First of all, my HEATS was a disaster. Got 4th for both team events. Where got fight sia? Got people from national team la, swim in SEA games la..Haizz Think this will be the first swimming competition I wont win anything. Haizz...dam disappointed man.........but mummy concoles me.
Next is the army AGAIN...
FUCK YOU la JIBYE!! I'm now temporarily PES C, but the fucking S1 put me as Permenant. So I from IntSpec become IntClerk. Never mind, I may not even have my combat pay anymore. My IPPT Gold's $200 also kena makan away.
YOU FUCKING JIBYE la hor SAF...
Eh...u are the military la. How can u fucking cock-up like that?? Jibye you know. The army ah, is the mother of all Fuck-ups. Fuck you understand!?
But I dont really feel totally upset because I have somthing to look forward to. Mummy wants to go to the Farm with me again! So happy!!
It isnt my show alone. It works both ways. Work with me k?
i was here @
1:01 AM.
Thursday, March 03, 2005
[[what sia??]]
Dont know why bandwidth exceed then for some time, the blog cant load up. Dont know if it is working now even. So many things happened.
IntSpec course pushed forward to 14Mar to 13Apr.. sian sia.. think i have to stay at er shu's house during that period. Think he got no internet. How to survive?????
Then so much things to do and settle. Haizzz fan ah!!!
Then thought my luck changed for the better, but what sia!??!?! Heavan playing a trick on me!!!! Why always like that de???? Sick of it....
Haia...dont know what to say la...
i was here @
10:44 PM.