Saturday, February 05, 2005
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Back from Tekong....
Was looking forward to be back, but things arent really going my way. Dont know why.. Pa never get angry with me since I enlisted le. At home very fan la..
Everytime I test system, I would get into trouble but luckily that didnt happen last Suunday night when I booked in..Matthew drove me to the camp gates....without a helmet.
Scared like hell man. hahaha...but it was an experience.
An even funnier thing happened in Tekong. I was taking a shit on the beach when I heard some engines noises. I thought they belonged to the commercial airplanes that frequently fly over Tekong. But the noises seem to get nearer and nearer until 2 speed boats belonginig to th Police STAR unit zoomed past before me. I dont know which was more magnificiant. The sight of 2 Police speed boats speeding past before me as I'm taking my shit or the sight, from 2 speeding Police speed boats, of a soldier in army fatigues taking a shit. This goes to show how rotten my luck is at doing things for the first time. Well, I was the one trying to be funny in the first place. Of all places, I chose to do my stuff right on the beach without any cover. Haizzz...next time, I'll choose a better place to shit la. Then maybe some commandos may drop in on me instead.
The planes reminded me of my little Gdaughter. I used to disturb her that she was an air-stewardess when she was working in the airport last time. I should have brought back for her a super duper whoppie big-sized wild boar..haha cock
However, I was overwhelmed by a strong feeling of
deja vu the moment I stepped onto SFT. The feeling only intensified when I set foot once again the island, the island where it all began, and ended. It was the beginning of the end, so to speak. Everything seemed just the way they used to like the day i enlisted. I remembered the training shed when xiaoANNA cried as we parted. I looked at the shed and remembered, how she also told me she had no more feelings when she was the one cried. As I stood at the oil palm plantation, it felt very strange. I was there looking for RAIs, but I simply stood there as though I was searching for something else.
I had been here before. The trees all look so familiar. This was the place where I has sweated and toiled. I felt like I went back in time. I felt like I was looking for someone. I kept turning round and round. Was I looking for myself? Or was I looking for her? Looking for the ones that we once were? It felt that way. Then I remembered what she did. I recalled what Hua and Boh did. Telling her to go with him.
I stopped looking and left the place.
Now it seems she's cooking up a nice story for herself to look good. Never mind. Just dont directly cross my path. Especially u, the guy. Jinjin said he dared not call me down to AMK to meet, cos he does not know wat may happen. I agreed with him, because Even I do not know what I will do. Even that thought scares me..haha
I told Jinjin at the gym:"One thing is for sure, unless he has some gyming experience, or possess a martial arts background..Do you think he can fucking stop a guy who lifts a 20kg dumbbell?"
Then i corrected myself, actually I only lift 17.5kg now. I was quite shagged out then too..serious. After all, I just finished 5 sets of 20 dips. Suspended.
Go ahead. Test me.
God bless you.
i was here @
4:02 PM.