Monday, February 28, 2005
[[Think I found Lacus]]
Mummy is such a baking addict. Think she's even more addicted to it than I am to Gundam. Hahaha..that day I was joking about letting her use my oven cos she says it's better and she really came! What sia?! Haha..but that day was damn crazy man. I was playing both sides. Could have gotten charged for AWOL. Anyway, enjoyed the baking session, especially the electric mixer. Today, mummy ask if she could come again to bake next week. I'm looking forward to it.
Made her angry just now when I said stupid. It was a joke, just wanted you to sleep. Sorry! Luckily I'm forgiven. Yeah! Haha..Tomorrow got to wake up earky to give mummy morning call. SO troublesome!
Things are going well for me these days, other than the 3 regimental duties I got next month. WHAT SIA!! I think i found Lacus. Though Lacus was somewhat different to Kira in the anime.
I always lacked just that missing link to make things happen. However it seems this time, the imaginary Freedom Gundam, which I have waited for so long, is finally here to take me to where I want to go. I hope things will remain this way. In any case, I will fight for this. I'm starting to learn to fight for myself.
Freedom, take me there!
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12:45 AM.
Thursday, February 24, 2005
[[f..kING MAD!!!!]]
went back for Guard Duty. Have to miss my swimming training as a result. So, we drew arms, rehearse for Guard Mounting, then we waited at the training shed for the Duty Officer to come. Then, came the shock, we saw the 20SA Guards walking to the Guard Room!!!! There was a big hoo-hah..then Sgt Vincent made a few phone calls....and told us we no need to do.
WHAT SIA?!?!Nvm...they say maybe thurs and fri make up.
WHAT SIA?!?!Why can't the Army just get its fucking act together? This is not the first time this thing happened leh! The other time was when I was doing COS. The BOS called and asked why the Guard Commander have not come, but it wasnt even our guys la! The 20SA forgot to send their guys down. The replacement is one thing, the other guys are ok, because they are in Amoy Quee. But i'm swimming in jurong leh!!! How the hell am i supposed to come back? I dont want to miss anymore trainings leh. I wont be able to make it on time for the meet le. Moreover nevt Sat I am the Guard Commander so I have to return on Friday morning for briefing. Eh, this is shit la. Fuck sia. I didnt join to lose. I need the training. It is really getting on my nerves. This is the reason why I am getting more and more sick of the army. It is not about having to serve my 2.5yrs liability, its these cock-ups everywhere and the dis-organisation. Then I just come back for one day and I have so many things thrown to me. 3 duties for the month of March, 2 wkend. Intspec course postpone also dont know for what reason.
FUCK SIA!!!!Sorry, for the language. Just cant take it anymore!!
At least, I had to something to be happy about. I met mummy for her to pass me the cake baked. It was not bad! Hahaha...hope she bakes more for me. Think tomorrow mummy also coming my house to bake cookies. Hahaha..
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2:32 AM.
Tuesday, February 22, 2005
[[tired...frm swimming]]
WOoo...the swimming training programme is a killer man, even though i only went for 2 days so far. I swam more than i ran in months sia! I realised I am really out of shape after being inactive for so long! Never swim nvm, also never train! Have alot of catching up to do!!!
Hmm...so many things happened during this few days that I didnt blog, dont think I can remember them all sia. Hahah..
I remembered 'mummy' bringing me to gaigai. As expected, the cheese cake was absent though promised. Haizz...haha oh well. Well, at least mummy did keep one peomise of bringing me to walkwalk after the show. We walked from PS to Lido cos there werent any more tickets for Constantine at PS. Afterwards, we walked all the way back to play my Mafia Shooting game. Hahah..mummy is so gd to me. But Hell! The bloody game is spoilt! Or rather the gun. The, the arcade guy ask me to stand on the mat properly. What sia?! Trying to test me right?? Ah! U doubt me!! Cuckoo..lim pei completed the game before ok. Haizz as a result I cant fa hui..Shucks!
Then mummy and I played some shooting games. She very useless leh. Complaining non-stop that the House of the Dead shotgun too heavy.. Then everytime when I help her to shoot people, I end up getting shot myself because, I left my backside uncovered!! And stupid mummy never help me!!
Well I have to return to Amoy Quee tomorrow for Guard Duty. Sian sia..luckily no need to go swimming in the morning. However, i got something to look forward to.. Mummy's homebaked cookies and cake..Yeah!!! Haha...i'll bring them in to camp to eat. Bloody hell, anyone dare to eat, i f**king give him one time side butt swing to his head! Haha...Thanks mummy. Please dont give up! Ganbare!
Oh one more thing. Think I pulled the stunt Daryl pulled back then. I'm Jinjin's matchmaker!! How ironic..It was supposed to be him matchmaking me, but in the end it was me. Hahah..good catch ok! He cock this up, I f**king give him 10 time forward butt smash and one time 20kg dumbbell between his legs! Hahah..
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9:02 PM.
Thursday, February 17, 2005
[[WOooHOoo (Ep.3)]]
yeah!! S2 released me to join the swim team!!!! Happy like siao man!!
HAHAHAH!!!!
But my IntSpec course in on 14'Mar while the finals are on18'Mar. I hope SMI can release me for 1 day for the swim. It really means alot to me.
Heard today from 2Lt Gan that they looking for swimmers also for Brigade Cohesion Swim. WaHaHa WaHaHa!! I told him thta I am interested too. Steady la..I spend my NS life swimming for my Unit, Division, then Brigade. HAHA..this has always been what I wanted. And hope I can stay out from now till the end of my IntSpec course! Haha...but jurong leh. Siong leh..Hope mummy will let me stay in her hostel! Mummy! ke yi ma??
Now I hope everything will run smoothly for me till I reach the end point.
Wish me luck.
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12:29 PM.
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
[[WOoHOoo (Ep.2)...then haizz]]
Shit man! Couldnt believe what has just happened
I got a phone call when the CO was talking to us. When I called back later from S2 branch, I got a big surprise. It was 3rd Division! They told me I got into the swimming team!!! I was damn happy sia!!!! They said actually they had sent out an email to S2, but Cpt Nicholas on course ma, then maybe that's why I didnt get to hear about it. I was Super happy man!! Its my dream come true! Ever since young, It has been my dream to swim, to compete in swimming. Finally I got the chance, which may aso very well be my last. Cuckoo say want to go see too, say its very fun! Hahah...
However there is just this one thing holding me back.. have yet to go for my IntSpec course. It should be around this time. If these 2 things were to clash, I think I may have to give up my dream. Unless I can be sure that my place in S2 is secured. Haizz....what a dilemma!
I really want very much to join the swimming team. I have waited so this day. Haizz.... Hope things turn out fine for me. My luck has been down lately, hope it changes....
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9:07 PM.
[[WOooHOoo!!!]]
I'm now in my S2 branch...blogging away! Hahah...I think I'm going to like being an IntSpec, at least during Admin time. I just moved into my new bunk this morning to. Well, it was old actually, but cosy. Because although I share it with other HQ Specs, we have our own mini-fridge, tv, playstation, and even a stove! Hahaha...think tonight i'm going home to bring in my toaster too.
It is the lull period now, so we are quite relaxed too anyway. Once in a while conduct spot check, check for security breaches, etc. Otherwise, I'll be in my branch watching Chrono Crusade on the com, or surfing the web. Haha..think some of you saw me in MSN quite frequently too right, in the day. Hahah..Think this would be the wet dream of all Army man right? Well, I have toiled enough, and have had my share of suffering, so now i deserve to enjoy the fruits of my hard labour.
I feel happy too, cause now I am released from the evil clutches of the enciks. Yeah!!
Hope the good days will last. Well, back then in SISPEC, I put myself through all the shit because I forsee this. I know times will improve once I have passed my trainee phase. But in the end, People dont appreciate the effort I put in. Well, that's just too bad I guess? Leave me just because times are hard. Well, fuck off. At least I know I'm not like that. I have been brought up differently, thankfully.
But the sad fact is that people dont know this. People always judge me wrongly. It is really a very sickening feeling. Haiya fuck la hor..
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12:54 PM.
Sunday, February 13, 2005
[[pissed off]]
last night went Rush for Daryl's Birthday. Then someone keep pushing me to take a puff. Fucking dulan..haizz. Really was fucking mad at him. Luckily I didnt budge. Why he like that? Maybe he's drunk, give it to him la. haizz....
But that night I damn hyper sia! Second time chiong only, but got dance leh. Hahah...but I excused upper limb, never move my arms hahah..like cock.
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1:23 PM.
Thursday, February 10, 2005
[[CNY...sianzzzzzzzzzz]]
Hmmm..this is a rather boring new year. Just feel very boliao leh. When i Book in on Monday, I shall assume my role as IntSpec 2, or so i think. Why cant the enciks just make up their minds? Am I under Support Coy or under S2? I fucking like a lost sheep..Dont know where i belong. Han Guang and Jie Lun already shift their bunk and they now sign out under HQ, but when I ask about my status, he say he doesnt even know they are shifting. Its one big cock-up la. Why cant they just get their act together? No wonder the SAF is so disorganised. They dont want to give proper instructions la, then when I ask more, they get irritated. When I dont ask, they say I jibye. Bloody hell leh.
Well that aside, Friendster seems to be proving its worth. It actually help me get in touch with a friend from way back. Alright then, I shall forgive its frequent crashes.
'I do, I do' is just ok la. Not say very good. She was very adorable. We talked alot. As though it was just yesterday that we last saw each other. SiYing shocked me with her acute memory. She remembered things from back then even now. Things that even I dont remember telling her. And things she said she told me about and i forgot. -_-" ...Oh well, there were e
mbarrassing moments. What the heck. And its not my fault! I think the structures built in Singapore are really small. I dont mean to intrude into your space! Sorry...
Saw on TV that UK funfair is back, as did some memories. Stupid. Feel like going again, but dont who to call along
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11:55 PM.
Saturday, February 05, 2005
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Back from Tekong....
Was looking forward to be back, but things arent really going my way. Dont know why.. Pa never get angry with me since I enlisted le. At home very fan la..
Everytime I test system, I would get into trouble but luckily that didnt happen last Suunday night when I booked in..Matthew drove me to the camp gates....without a helmet.
Scared like hell man. hahaha...but it was an experience.
An even funnier thing happened in Tekong. I was taking a shit on the beach when I heard some engines noises. I thought they belonged to the commercial airplanes that frequently fly over Tekong. But the noises seem to get nearer and nearer until 2 speed boats belonginig to th Police STAR unit zoomed past before me. I dont know which was more magnificiant. The sight of 2 Police speed boats speeding past before me as I'm taking my shit or the sight, from 2 speeding Police speed boats, of a soldier in army fatigues taking a shit. This goes to show how rotten my luck is at doing things for the first time. Well, I was the one trying to be funny in the first place. Of all places, I chose to do my stuff right on the beach without any cover. Haizzz...next time, I'll choose a better place to shit la. Then maybe some commandos may drop in on me instead.
The planes reminded me of my little Gdaughter. I used to disturb her that she was an air-stewardess when she was working in the airport last time. I should have brought back for her a super duper whoppie big-sized wild boar..haha cock
However, I was overwhelmed by a strong feeling of
deja vu the moment I stepped onto SFT. The feeling only intensified when I set foot once again the island, the island where it all began, and ended. It was the beginning of the end, so to speak. Everything seemed just the way they used to like the day i enlisted. I remembered the training shed when xiaoANNA cried as we parted. I looked at the shed and remembered, how she also told me she had no more feelings when she was the one cried. As I stood at the oil palm plantation, it felt very strange. I was there looking for RAIs, but I simply stood there as though I was searching for something else.
I had been here before. The trees all look so familiar. This was the place where I has sweated and toiled. I felt like I went back in time. I felt like I was looking for someone. I kept turning round and round. Was I looking for myself? Or was I looking for her? Looking for the ones that we once were? It felt that way. Then I remembered what she did. I recalled what Hua and Boh did. Telling her to go with him.
I stopped looking and left the place.
Now it seems she's cooking up a nice story for herself to look good. Never mind. Just dont directly cross my path. Especially u, the guy. Jinjin said he dared not call me down to AMK to meet, cos he does not know wat may happen. I agreed with him, because Even I do not know what I will do. Even that thought scares me..haha
I told Jinjin at the gym:"One thing is for sure, unless he has some gyming experience, or possess a martial arts background..Do you think he can fucking stop a guy who lifts a 20kg dumbbell?"
Then i corrected myself, actually I only lift 17.5kg now. I was quite shagged out then too..serious. After all, I just finished 5 sets of 20 dips. Suspended.
Go ahead. Test me.
God bless you.
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4:02 PM.