Sunday, January 30, 2005
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Been absent for so long because Nights-Off are lesser these days..besides so many things have happened during this period..dont know where to begin...
to know that something is wrong and be silent about it is wrong isnt it?
~kira
I really wonder if one will stand up to wats wrong when he sees it in present times. Even I dont stand up for myself. I'm now downgraded to PES C2L1 for 6mths because my knees have decided that it is time for them to give way. However, I'm still required to attend the Tekong package while on medical status. I have an medical appt next Wed but Encik told me to change t again. I have postponed all my appts time and again. But this time its fucked-up. He could fucking get charged for going against the TSR by forcing me to do all this shit and go in FBO when i'm excused heavy load...I explained to him that i really did pushed back my appts but it is the last straw. However, he wouldnt listen. He fucked me as though I was feigning it..Bloody FUCK! What I hate most is people saying that I'm a fake.
I put up with the pain because back then I endured it, looking forward to a better life and more freedom to be with Leong, as a Sgt upon completion of my course, which of course I realised was all in vain because she forsake me...
Well, that point aside...Guess I couldnt stand up for myself simply because I lack the power to do so...Isnt this always the case? Or is it the lack of courage to stand up to what i believe in? Can anyone tell me? I feel like Athrun..alnoe in seeking out his answer to his inner battles.
NTU sent me a letter telling me that I can opt to change the course of my choice since they have new courses this year. The only one that seemed a likely choice would be Aerospace Eng..Sounds big huh! Dont really know what's it abt...heading down to he NTU seminar to find out more tomorrow.
what you are capable of doing and what you wish for,
you yourself should know it best..
~Gundam SEED Destiny
Well, in my case I dont. But I do know, I made a major blunder. Something that was natured and built up after such a long period of time, all may just disappear. All because of my negligence.
But I was just anxious.
Concerned.
I want to set things right.
Again.
How?
i was here @
4:17 AM.