Thursday, December 02, 2004
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people who know me know that i'm crazy abt Gundam..think i'm drawn to Japanese anime bcos of their stories and its meanings..smtimes i relate myself to Kira(Gudam SEED),drawn reluctantly into a fight he doesnt understand. He fights for the ones he care for, not for himself. He doesnt claim credit, he juz wan to be appreciated but the ones that he protect take him for granted and forsake him..others,like Frey,make use of him for their own personnal goals..he doesnt mind, his heart is pure..but smtimes he feels so lonely..bcos he fights his own people, the coordinators & he cant fit in among the naturals..he goes against those who will accept him but only to realise that ppl he protects forsake him..he puts himself thru so much misery only to find himself alone in the world..just when it was too much,Athrun, his buddy forgave his past deeds and stood by him....
this is what i see now..friends whom i neglected suddenly appear before me..but they cant possibly stand by me all time,so i'm still very much alone in my own fight..i give so much till the very last moment only to find myself standing alone..the one i fought so long for forsake me..leaving me all alone to fend for myself while she leaves for a better life,forgetting that i have always been fending for her and neglecting my own self..why is the human mind so weak? why do they give up? why do cagali and kira continue fighting for Obu even when they know its a losing battle? why cant we do the same? ..but i did it! i persist even when i was tired why couldnt she? ..i wish i could be like kira..the world may be in chaos, their lives a living hell but they find purpose in fighting for their cause no matter how bleak it may seem..they may fail but everyone sticks together and stay true to each other even during times of uncertainty..why do people forget about all this & mind only for themselves?
....i want to be like kira
i made a wrong choice then. it hurts to see her like this. it is my fault.
i was here @
1:13 PM.